Obviously, I do not mean it in the literal word as ‘me’ walking on water. But this phrase ‘Walking on water’ is one that’s been on my mind since the 10th of September and each day I am inspired to write something about it. And I know I’ve been away for a while- from social media and everything ‘online’. The time off was a much-needed space for me to reflect and most importantly work on myself. I never forgot about you though but this ‘me time’ was everything I needed and still need. Hopefully, I get to go in-depth in sharing my story on what’s happened and still happening to inspire you. So since I’ve been away let me start by saying …hey lovelies, it’s good to have you back (insert smiley face).
I have been inspired to share my thoughts on walking on water based on the encounters I had several months back. And although this phrase brings to mind the story of Jesus walking on water it, also, speaks volume to my personal journey these past months. I was listening to Mali Music ‘Walk on water’ and instantly I realised how the past months have been for me. It felt as though I have been walking on water, almost drowning.
This phrase ‘walking on water’ speaks particularly to me about life’s struggles. How we try to cope with the impossible or what seems impossible. It’s like being thrown into the ocean deep knowing fully well you are unable to swim and when thrown in, you struggle to breath, you need to survive. You fight to come out so you find a way of lifting yourself; your head a little higher, you’re happy because you catch your breath but then you find yourself going deeper and deeper again and you wonder “is this the end?” Now that’s how life can be for some people but if you are lucky, you swim out of it and come to land or you get recused by the lifeguard but sadly not everyone makes it to land.
The past months have been like that for me, one of a roller coaster, struggling to swim out of the ocean I was thrown in, and how like Peter in the Bible, I kept looking up to God to save me from drowning, and other times been so afraid that I look at the sea and I thought I was sinking, and somehow like Peter I was led back to the boat. In that moment, I literally saw God manifest himself in the most amazing way possible.
I mean sometimes God is so full of humour and he makes me laugh at how he turns everything out in one’s favour only if you trust him. So particularly for me, its been months of learning, reflecting, waiting on God and holding on to his words.
Throughout this process, I have learnt to wait on the lord and to trust his timing. I now understand that he is never too late or too early he is simply on time and whilst he is working, I am learning to be Still and just Wait.
The difficulty with all of these is, it isn’t easy to wait on someone or something when everything around you looks like it’s about to crash on you and if you do not act fast, you will crumble with it but hey I’m learning to ‘WAIT’ and ‘TRUST’ Gods timing. I will say trusting and waiting is the most difficult part for me as I am generally not a patient person but I am learning. slowly, taking baby steps.
In conclusion, although it’s been months of challenges, it has toughened and strengthened my faith and I am slowly learning not to get obsessed over how things will get resolved but trust Gods timing.